Heavens! It's been awhile!
I have been getting job offers coming out of my ears. Stressful!
Earlier this semester, I was practically begging for work and now employers are calling me left and right. Big employers--the kind who the quote "it's not what you know but who you know (and who you work for)" was inspired by.
Its making me antsy, anxious, unsettled. I don't know which one to say yes to and which opportunities to let slip by! What if I make the wrong decision? What if sticking with my job at the restaurant shines a negative light upon my professional aspirations and goals? I am ambitious, no doubt--I definitely work hard. I want to be in the best position I can be so that I might be considered competition when it comes time to apply for grad school or to further my career (in whatever field it may be in). Plus, I hate disappointing people. I have a hard time saying no to great opportunities even though I may have little or no time to add a new project. I realize this is a flaw....but it is making me learn how to be very efficient with my time (slowly but surely, I'm learning). Then again, is being so busy really so great?
I suppose I should stop being so silly and take a moment to thank my Heavenly Father for all of these wonderful blessings.
I have options.
Options.
How great is that? Not everyone has that kind of luxury and here I am, contemplating posting a silly facebook status complaining about how blessed I am.
Sheesh. Spoiled brat, right?
I'm even making my poor roommate anxious, pacing the floor, trying to decide which job to take and which to quit, calculating how much time I have left in a day to squeeze something else into my already crammed schedule.
But I am thankful.
So incredibly thankful and realize how blessed I am.
I currently have two part time jobs and two research assistant positions plus a full work load from 15 credits worth of classes. I'm calling it. Recognizing my limits. Life isn't always about making good or bad choices. Sometimes you have to choose between two or three or four really great choices! And it's okay if you don't participate and do every little thing or take advantage of every little opportunity that comes your way. I'm saying this perhaps more as a release of this "teenage-like" angst I have than for anyone who might actually read this blog. But it does hold true.
Okay. I feel a bit better now.
I'm thankful for the ability to say "no" and for the reasons behind the necessity to decline all of these wonderful job opportunities--I'm already doing wonderful, worthwhile things!
God is great and I am humbled by how blessed I truly am.
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